Turning 30 years old

I started this list a couple months ago thinking I'd get to 30 points that I would like to share in honor of thirty years I've been blessed to live. 30 points I did not reach. Here are the points that made it onto the list. My wish on my birthday is to live by these each day.... (a girl can dream)

• Interacting/observing nature grounds and energizes you. Seek this medicine daily.
  
• Trust your gut.
• When you make big changes or there is a huge emotional event you want to alter your appearance somehow. ie... cut/dye my hair or get a tattoo. (I'd like to stop this)
  
• Its ok to feel sorry for yourself every once and a while but do it then leave it. The past is done. Learn from it and move on. If you don't learn from it the same lesson will present itself in another situation.
• The worst in you has come out and inflicted pain with words towards others and pain from action to myself while being intoxicated with alcohol. I am sorry for this character flaw. If you have been on the receiving end of this I am truly sorry. I hope I have learned this lesson for the last time.
  
• The best in you has been discovered/uncovered when you have been faced with an obstacle perceived as impassable/impermeable.
• Love who you are. You're guaranteed to be with yourself all the time
• Be patient with yourself and others as you would be a young child. We are all learning new experiences as a child would everyday.
• If you hope for it and dream for it and consistently work on bringing your dreams into focus you'll get what you ask for so choose your dream. Don't let it choose you... be conscious in the life you create.
  
• Fall in love with reading again and again.
  
• Don't drink orange juice after brushing your teeth!
• Continue to grow through life transitions. High school to college to professional school to moving to Indiana to moving to Raleigh. Each transition allowed you the opportunity to shed the parts of yourself you'd outgrown and grow into the women you are today. Continue to challenge what you think you can do.
  
• The older you get... the less you know.
  
• To be loved, to be heard, and to express joy in our unique way is a recipe for a great life.

Love to you all. Thanks for letting me share my life with you.

Melding

Melding: the act of melting and welding something. To mend and heal. (Heidi definition not widely acknowledged)
Yesterday something huge happened! My family, my childhood family, got together and shared a meal. The day I had hoped and dreamed about came true. Its been a VERY long time since we've sat around a table. Since.... before they moved from Indiana to North Carolina. If you were there you know the details of the simple laughs and joy we had. I really thought it might not happen to get my mom and dad at the same table. Not that they both are unwilling but we try to protect the ones we love from hurt and sometimes that means we are keeping them from growing and bringing peace to their lives and maybe ours. It shouldn't matter what others got out of the evening but for me it grew peace. Like a vine traversing an opening in my soul. Since I've moved closer to my family I have healed in many ways and I am very thankful. It takes a wonderful support system to walk into barriers you don't want to face but, its completely worth it. Thank you to my husband who has listened to me analyze this aspect of my life in a million different ways. For me it was EPIC! Meaning a heroic feat.