2/4/09

Today is my day off from seeing patients.
6AM alarm
Snooze twice (at least)
First thing was to warm up the car since its been below freezing for the last week.
Every Wednesday for the past year I have been the president of a Networking group that starts at 7AM. This role ends in April. Part of me is sad that I won't be responsible to keep the meetings on track since I feel I've done a good job of it. The other part is happy... no, excited to be done lugging around the supplies I have been responsible for, not HAVING to be present every Week and not dealing with the politics of keeping a group of type A entrepreneurs on track. I want to add to the chaos and have fun instead.
Responsibility is good but I'm over it... for now.
Next on the list is reading up on strokes and then mind body patterns. Later, pilates and cycling class. Lastly... watching LOST! :-)

The reason I started this blog is I frequently search the Internet for most of the information I seek. Questions about this and that. Todays question search was on Lymph cleansing/detox and emotions. I found nothing so I've decided to document my experience.

I have the pleasure of working and studying Enzyme Therapy. The system I use is through Loomis Institution / Enzyme Formulations.
(Hair club for men announcer voice)
"Not only am I a practitioner but I am also a participant."

Two weeks ago the doctor I work with and I started me on a program to support/clean my lymph system. I feel like I've been taken over my many of my past selves. I've had intense and interesting dreams and have been living in a constant state of more intense than usual emotions. Last week I was angry. Angry all week. This week I've slipped in to sad and wanting to be a social recluse (this is not normal for me). Here is the reason: our lymph system is our sewage system. It cleans all the muck from each cell. So though I've previously dealt with the things I'm currently feeling by body had walled off this energy to protect me and now that I am seeking to heal it is coming out. I'm healing... I understand but, it doesn't feel good. I'm constantly aware of how solemn I feel. I am not aware of what memories I'm dealing with only that I am dealing with them. Things that will help me through this are positive thinking. Reassuring my being that it is ok to deal with what is going on inside. Support is here. Love is here. Also, getting craniosacral work done, eating and drinking healthily, and breathing exercises to pump the lymph.

My second search was on Grief. I couldn't remember how many steps there were and kept getting them confused with the seven deadly sins and steps in AA. So here they are. There are seems to be an agreement on 5 or 7 stages of grief... each of which I think I might feel with healing. (oh joy!) I'm not exactly sure what the heck I'm healing from... but, its probably better that way. OK
1. Shock and Denial
2. Pain and Guilt
3. Anger and Bargaining
4."Depression", reflection, loneliness
5. The upward turn
6. Reconstruction and working through
7. Acceptance and hope